Hello friends! This is a completely personal post. It’s a huge step forward in my life and I really wanted to let it out. It’s honestly a huge surprise that I’ve been holding in, and things are becoming a little bit more official now.
I’ve recently decided that it’s time for a drastic change. I took some time to go over my personal needs and realized that one of the things I really need out of life is space. As a child, I’ve always shared a room with my brothers. the lack of privacy drove me crazy at times, but it was manageable. After moving in with my boyfriend at the time, I spent another four to five years with him in his place. Which was also manageable, but settled if that makes sense. I never really had a place to call my own or customize the way I wanted to, making me feel a bit helpless in a lot of situations. My podcast would always be hard to record, it would always be hard for me to focus when writing on my blog, and I always felt kind of like a burden. Wasting expenses like gas, water, food. I realized about a month ago that all of these factors are what has been bringing me down so much. So here it is, the big surprise…
I’M GETTING MY OWN APARTMENT!
At first, I didn’t think that this idea was good in any way. I thought that this was going to just be a huge waste of money, no room to grow, and pure stress. Maybe it is going to cause some financial stress and a busier schedule working to catch up on bills. But I don’t necessarily think that this is a bad thing. One of my biggest 2020 goals was to start being more independent. If anything, this decision is an investment on myself and a new experience! I feel like this decision is completely necessary to grow. By getting an apartment, I’m going to open so many doors for growth for both me and my readers.
I’m going to be fully expressing myself and not holding back when it comes to Self Development With Virona. Before, when creating each episode, I felt a bit restrained. I have this problem where I feel like I’m being judged super hard when projecting my voice out loud. Having my own place will not only give me freedom in expressing myself, but I will also have a little “recording area” to get comfortable in. This will push me to keep growing and putting out new episodes with my show.
BLOG AND SHOP
Living in a big household can be super fun and entertaining, but when it comes to work, there is a lot of background noise making me unable to focus on my Blog and Etsy Shop. Living alone will help me keep that focus and provide more value to my viewers and customers. I do believe that with the right amount of focus, I can come up with really amazing things to help you guys out. I’ve already been creating several worksheets and packets. I can only imagine how much value I can provide with complete focus!
I already talked about this briefly, but I really am excited for that independence in having my own place. With everything in life, having independence may come with its cons like putting in extra hard work and taking huge responsibilities, but being your own person with your own things gives you freedom. Grocery shopping, My pantry filled with snacks that I want, a fridge stashed with veggies and fresh juice. I love that idea. Washing my linens that I chose with scented laundry soap that I prefer. I don’t mind cleaning if its a mess that I made. I don’t mind paying bills for expenses that I used. I’m excited for the complete independence and everything that comes with it.
I’m super excited to be designing my environment fit for my personal needs. Like I said before, I’ve always been someone’s roommate. That came with sacrifices like not being able to have a million plants scattered all over, or making everything completely pink and cute with a bed full of stuffed animals. I’ve never really experimented with different designs. Right now, I know exactly what I want out of my place. I want something that makes me feel at peace. Something with a lot of green and woods. I want a breath of fresh air when walking in. I can customize all of that. I won’t go into detail on how I plan on designing my apartment in this post, because I have a WHOLE other post dedicated to what it’s going to look like here.
EXPERIMENTING WITH DIFFERENT CONTENT CREATION
I’ve always wanted to make videos of me doing miscellaneous activities but felt restrained by again, the fear of judgement. I get really worried that people can hear me talking to the camera or see me recording myself. It probably has something to do with me being extremely shy, but I’m happy that there will be no one there to watch me do these things. I really want to get into cooking videos. I wanna prop my camera up and film me cutting veggies, blending fruits, decorating dishes, and trying new recipes. That’s something I’ve always wanted to record myself doing. I also want to do vlogs, day in the life videos, and my apartment updates. That’s something I’m really excited to share with you: Me purchasing, working on, and building my furniture!
So right now as for expenses, I have a bit saved up for furniture and the first few months of rent. Aside from what I already have saved, I picked up two jobs to really ensure that I’ll have a comfortable living situation. They provide decent pay, and I’l be good to support myself. My main goal is to start making income online with my Podcast, Blog, and Etsy Shop, so that I will have time to quit at least one of these jobs, and have time to create more and higher quality content for you to enjoy. I don’t want to end up settling with these jobs and depend on them to live.
One of the things that I’m most excited to do is inspire others to change the quality of their lives. I also want to show people that it is not impossible to get out of a certain way of life if you really work hard enough. When I’m taking on this challenge of being fully independent and alone, I want to provide a learning experience for you as well. That’s what drives me the most when taking this on. I’m excited to go on that journey together!
I think that my biggest challenge will be time management. I’m more worried about time than anything. I have a big fear of living a settled life. I want time to blog, make videos, travel, and work for you. I don’t like the idea of working for a big company or anyone higher than me. I want to be my own boss. These two jobs have made me exhausted. I’ve been so tired after working. I have days where I open my laptop, try to start writing, stare at my screen for a few minutes, then shut it and take a long nap instead. I don’t want to lose touch with the personal friends I have made here. I don’t want to stop inspiring my following. I want to stay here and help improve your life. Time management will be something that I end up getting the hang of eventually. I’ll be able to adjust to the right sleeping, eating, working, personal goals, and unwinding schedule eventually. And when I do, you will be the first to know about how I was able to do it! I’m excited to take on a something to end up teaching about later on.
That pretty much sums up my update on big surprise! If you want to read more about how I’m going to decorate the apartment, I have another post that you can check out here talking about the earthy style and theme I want to incorporate.
SEE THE PROCESS OF ME GETTING MY NEW PLACE HERE